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One of the reasons that I want to do this blog is to allow myself to be able to write freely about thoughts with out fear of criticism. Just getting the thoughts out there, out of my head and into the world. I have a theory that well respected analysts done get respected so much for what they write but more the sheer volume of their work. I like to imagine that if i was to start writing my opinions and thoughts and then posted them somewhere where people might actually see them, then before too long i could become and industry expert.

That doesn’t mean that I would be any smarter of better informed, just visible. However to test my theory I will need to write more. This brings me back to the purpose of this blog. If I can use it to loosen up my creative inhibitions then i might be able to release the thoughts from within. I guess ultimately i do want to be heard.

In some respects it is a bit strange writing a personal note which will go largely unnoticed in the wider world, but might actually get read by someone else some time. For this reason I still feel the need to be guarded in what I say. Maybe this is what is holding me back.

I can’t really explain why I don’t just write this in a personal and private diary. Maybe it is the secret thrill of getting caught that is the reason for putting it all out there on the web.

Ok here it is … a commitment. I will add a minimum of a 100 word posting to this page every day. If I miss a day then I will have 100 words to catch up on. If I write more than 100 words then it doesn’t count to the future.

It really shouldn’t be too hard given that this post is only 329 words long.

Yesterday I made my big purchase. A lovely big 19″ LCD screen for home. I am just trying to work out now weather I keep both monitors and run them side by side, or ditch the old one. I may have to do something about the CD burner that I have as well.

It don’t burn. This is a fairly fundamental problem for a CD burner. I might try and swap it out for my old on in the other PC, but I would really like to have it working somehow.

The other thing on the wish list is a tablet PC. I am really trying hard to find a way to justify spending $4500 on a glorified notepad. It is hard but I am trying. I should really just take a proper touch typing course.

Well i finished the run, which was actually a bit more like a swim. It absoulutely poured rain.

I don’t know what is causing it but i am having problems breathing. Some have suggested that it is stress related, or some sort of anxiery attack. I have been to a doctor (well a couple actually) and they have told me that i am fine physically.

It just shits me that sometimes i suddenly start trying to pull deep breaths that I cannot let go of. I am wondering if I am getting stressed about the run on the weekend. I have not done as much training as I should have, and although i feel fit i am probably remembering the failure that I had at the Corp games in March.

At that run I collapsed and did not even finish the race. It was only 10km, and this one is 21km. I guess I will find out on sunday….

This week i am getting prepared to run 21kms. There has not been the level of training that should really be required for a run like this but as long as I finish the race i’ll be happy. I hope to finish in under 100minutes.

I’ll be having another training run tonight.