Crossroads.
Well here I go again. Events have not directed me down the path that I had hoped so now it is time for reflection. Again. It has been a tough week. I have been asked to perform tasks at work that are not part of my day to day role, however during this time I have feeling like I have been under the gun of an interview process. A process that is now complete with out an obviously positive resolution for me. The other sucky part is that it was my birthday during the week and I have had this cloud hanging over me.
Tomorrow the game starts new again. I need to decide where to from here. Same old, same old or new rules of engagement. It has to be that latter but I am not sure yet what that means. Importantly I don’t doubt my own abilities. I am however, frustrated by some sort of perception that others have of me as a one horse race. Very wrong. It makes me angry because I don’t know weather those involved are too stupid to see me otherwise or choose not to for their own reasons. I have learned not to assume stupidity although it is usually the most likely cause.
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
