Idlemind - nickcoster.com
Future gazing from a quiet corner of cyberspace.

I am frantically writing up documents right now. Many of the ones that I have been procrastinating doing for a while. It has taken most of the morning but I am now in the grove to some extent.

This may also be because people have started to leave me alone as my value to the business here fades before I leave. I expect that there will be a flurry of activity in my last week but I also won’t be disappointed if there isn’t.

This is also my second attempt to post a message via email. I screwed it up the first time.

You may also notice the inclusion of a photo here. This was taken in a pub in Washington DC. The beer was one of 4 in a beer sampling menu that ran parallel to the food. hmmmmm beeer.

Well I have resigned from my current job and I am now just serving out my last 4 weeks. My boss hasn’t spoken to me since I handed in my notice. Unfortunately I am not going to have a chance to get a break between roles. I’ll be finishing up here on the 4th of June to start the new job on the following Monday.

I have been here too long and this place has sucked the life out of me. I sometimes feel like I have no fight left.

Anyway I have also been playing around with the look of this page since Blogger have revamped their blogging tools. Hopefully you will find a “comments” tag at the bottom of this post. Please have a go and tell me what you think of the new look.

Well it is 12:30pm on a Wednesday night. I have slurped down the better part of a bottle of wine an I am feeling slightly freeer for it. Now typing that I have to wonder whether “freeer” is a word. There is something about typing 3 e’s in a row that doesn’t “feeel” right.

For anyone who actually follows this ramble, I have made contact with Dad. He called, I apologised. Everything cool and now I have his number again.

I bought the PC that he was after yesterday. I hope it gets delivered soon. The case is rather funky, at least from the reviews pictures and the reviews. I had to draw the line at a gig of RAM. That had to fall out of the budget. 512MB will have to do.

I have just realised that this blog is nearly a year old. 18th of May is the first official post here. There were a few dabblings before that but I?ll call the 18th the official birthday of the site.

It is interesting to look back because this time last year I was thinking about similar things. Mainly writing, running and thinking. The ? marathon is coming around again in less than a month and thin time I am going to beat 100 minutes. There it is said now. No ?I hope to beat?, this time I WILL beat 100 minutes. In the mean time since last year I have run this race and finished and then run a Marathon later in the year.

Distance is no longer my enemy. Now I am against the clock. At the same time I still find the head space, the ?Idle mind?, to meditate as I run. This should lead to immediate writing but I am still not as fearless as some of my online peers and probably judge myself harder than any one else. I guess I am afraid of the overlap between the virtual space and the land of the real.

Well here I go again. Events have not directed me down the path that I had hoped so now it is time for reflection. Again. It has been a tough week. I have been asked to perform tasks at work that are not part of my day to day role, however during this time I have feeling like I have been under the gun of an interview process. A process that is now complete with out an obviously positive resolution for me. The other sucky part is that it was my birthday during the week and I have had this cloud hanging over me.

Tomorrow the game starts new again. I need to decide where to from here. Same old, same old or new rules of engagement. It has to be that latter but I am not sure yet what that means. Importantly I don’t doubt my own abilities. I am however, frustrated by some sort of perception that others have of me as a one horse race. Very wrong. It makes me angry because I don’t know weather those involved are too stupid to see me otherwise or choose not to for their own reasons. I have learned not to assume stupidity although it is usually the most likely cause.

Well I met with the chap below again this week. One thing that I learned from him is that charisma sells, and sometimes you just don’t take no for an answer.

Unfortunately, like many Americans, he had no sense that business models can be different in other places in the world. His business is based around his company hosting their messaging data stores on their premises. This might be ok if they were close to therest of the network and there were no data traffic costs but this is not the case.

They are hosting from New York state, in the US. From the customer point of view this may make very little difference at all, however for the ISP it take email from being a (relatively) low cost type of data and turns it into international data traffic which is much more expensive. Not to mention the effect of what happens it the link is unavailable to the US. Pahh!!Not going to happe with that model. Not from Australian ISP’s anyway.

In any case he was still very compelling and I would like to see a product like his take off, particularly since it is the same idea that I am pushing for work next year.

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I am sick at the moment, at home. My head is all stuffed up and my nose if dribbling like a tap. I don’t like taking time off from work but sometimes it is just pointless to try and think with a head full of snot.